Tonight

Tonight, my heart is silenced…
feeling nothing.
Not memory.
Not pain.
But blank or numb or oblivious
to the world’s wreckage.

Tumbled in dry grass…
ready tender….
for just that spark….
that fire that will
set it first to smolder…

then gentle breeze
breathing into it
a breath that sets
it aglow with fire.

My heart tonight however,
is silenced and waiting.
Small still voice that whispers….
breathe….
live…
be alive….
rise.

Am I alive?
Am I alive?
Am I fulfilled in
the deepest recesses
of my heart?
Is there a longing found?
Some dark deepest desire?
Is there a common ground
where thought and hope
and want and complete can meet?
Is there a whisper in my ear?
A supposed regret?
Does the anger swell and rage?
Does the painful heart forget?
Does forgiveness abound?
Or the fruit of love?
Does sorrow surround
a disquieted heart?
Does my heart feel
anything that is mine?

De'Anna L. West

© August 27, 2006

I Forget! Live with it....I do!

Sometimes I forget that this is here.
Life has gotten so busy somehow.
I work nights.
I sleep days.
My life is turned around
and finding the time to make
it all work out is a task all
by itself.
I keep thinking that winter
is upon us already.
I haven't much good wood in
to stay warm with.
The gardens will freeze soon
and I need to gather plants and bring
them indoors.
Amidst the seeming chaos
I seem to have a measure of peace
or grace given to me.
For one reason or another I am
not frantic, not worried, just calm.
Life is like that.....
You go through a storm and
then everything else that would
normally bring you worry....just doesn't.
Such is with me right now.
I can't call it indifference either.
I am just tired I think
Of working nights,
and sleeping days.
Of trying to make things right....
because when I do, it still isn't right.
I had to tell my soul the other day
to be quiet so that the Lord could speak!
It worked. Now I am quiet. Now the Lord speaks.
He tells me I don't have to do a thing....
and to not worry about what troubles life
might bring, because they are already taken
care of. I like that. It's already done. That spells
vacation to me. A time when I might get to
see people and love on people I haven't seen
in some time. This year, has been a year
of restoration! Family members I haven't seen
nor heard from in years have been calling.
It's fun. So I am going to continue just to soak
in the Son. (play on words and italics are mine)....because....
I really don't have to do a thing at all....
just love...and show that love to others.

De'Anna West--September 13th, 2010- ©